Sunday, January 16, 2011
Which is pretty much how I feel after an emotional roller coaster of a week.
Ironically, my "emotional rescue" came in the form of a scale. In just over two weeks, I've lost nine pounds. I'm convinced it would have been ten had I not succumbed to a pizza and beer night...the day after I declared "cheat day" with a McDonalds Angus Burger. Oy.
I am the poster child for the emotional eater. Before Karen and I started this fitness journey, I ate when I was upset. Or sad. Or downright mad.
These days, I turn to fitness.
I don't deal well with emotional hurt. Punch me in the face and I'll bounce back. But put a knife in my heart? Well hell, you may as well call Ronald McDonald and have him special deliver me an upsized Double Big Mac meal.
I got hurt this week, and the temptation to idle in the the Golden Arches' drive-thru lane was strong.
Lucky for me, I have a husband who loves me, and a network of besties who want me to succeed. Not because I don't meet their standards, but because they love me. And care for me.
Just the way I am. (*insert Bruno Mars here*)
I worked out like a fiend this week. Between dance (five classes) at J'Adore Dance, aquasize, three spin classes (including one that almost killed me), and several sessions on the XBox Kinect (I am still cursing Jillian Michaels on the Biggest Loser game), I barely had time to breathe.
But it got me through the hurt, and the disappointment of facing the fact my perception wasn't real.
What is real is the number on the scale. I'm pretty proud of that, and the personal challenges I've set. I've planned a trip to Vegas with one of my besties in April and we want to be down 20 pounds each by then. That same friend and I are going to ride our bikes to Calgary this summer as well. While I'm not new to bicycle road trips, Sue-ber is, and I'm SO excited to share that journey with her.
My heart has healed somewhat and I'm ready to give it my all next week. I know the pounds will come off slower now - it is neither realistic or healthy to lose weight so quickly. But I'm loving the new energy - and confidence - losing even nine pounds has given me.
Current weight: 196
Goal weight: 150